I am an Energy Healer. My passion is to gather information and teach others to heal themselves.
Antarian Healing Oracle
Friday, September 28, 2018
Aura Clearing
The aura is an electromagnetic field around the body. This field picks up energies around us. These energies could be people's emotions/thoughts and our emotions/thoughts. These can be either happening now or an energetic residue left over from some other time.
Our auras also pick up energetic energy from beings you can't see. These beings could be just passing by, purposefully trying to influence you, or have actually attached to your aura. It is important to note that beings cannot affect your energy unless you are vibrating at their level.
Focus on your aura and see this grid pass through it in all dimensions, timelines, and lifetimes. Cleaning and strengthening the aura. See the negativity wash away. You may want to add colors such as gold, white, silver, or violet. You may want to add other visuals as well. Or you may want to just sit with or carry this grid with you.
Cutting Cords
Cutting cords refers to cutting energetic ties to a person, place, or thing. Cords often serve as a way to give and receive energy. These are often seen as ropes or strings of energy from a person to something or someone. We form many cords a week and sometimes a day.
The simple art of wanting or liking something or someone can form a cord. Or the act of not liking something or someone. We also have karmic and contract ties to people, places, and things that form cords. These are often thicker and much stronger. Everytime you think of a person, place, or thing you strengthen the cord. This doesn't matter if it is good thoughts or bad.
Look at and even envision this grid moving around your body. As it does this see/know/feel the cords being cut/dissolved/transmuted to light in all dimensions, timelines, and lifetimes.
If it is a karmic or contract cord you will need the assistance of your higher self and guides. These cords often have people in your life for a long time. Such as family, ex's you have kids with, ex's you were with for years, friends for years, enemies for year's... Or places you have been for year's or things that have great sentimental value to you.
Mental Pattern Release
Mental patterns are thinking habits you have. These are often a conscious and subconscious pattern. Often times you are thinking this way subconsciously, but it is possible and highly recommend to train yourself to become consciously aware. The ego chatter is also included here.
Humans are creatures of habit. Most of the habits we form are more harmful then good. It is now time to become consciously aware of your thinking. When certain situations occur we have a “go to” response. When someone makes us mad we think nasty things about them. When someone bullies us we start to believe it's true and bully ourselves.
See this grid within your head. Try to just sit and allow the ego to chatter. Find the subject of the chatter. Now engulf that subject with the grid. You may see pictures, words, hear voices, or feel the subject. See the subject fading into the grid or the grid wrapping around it. Ir maybe the grid covering it. Do this for all subjects until they are all gone. Make sure to state this is in all dimensions, timelines, and lifetimes.
Healing Energetic Imprints
Imprints can be programs within the energy field. These programs can affect the way you think, act, or feel. Some are placed before birth, some are made through experience, and some are placed by other beings.
Energetic imprints also can be residue left behind
from an energetic implant. Sometimes when an
implant has been within your being for a long
time or has greatly impacted your life when it is
removed an imprint can be left behind. A lot of
times the imprint is present because you on
some level have healed and removed the implant
through spiritual growth. These imprints can
affect you in the same way that the implant can.
The imprint will need to be removed and healed
just like an implant.
from an energetic implant. Sometimes when an
implant has been within your being for a long
time or has greatly impacted your life when it is
removed an imprint can be left behind. A lot of
times the imprint is present because you on
some level have healed and removed the implant
through spiritual growth. These imprints can
affect you in the same way that the implant can.
The imprint will need to be removed and healed
just like an implant.
For Removing the imprints you are asked to see,
feel, know that you are within a
octahedron/diamond shape. If you have
knowledge of or a good guess of where this
imprint would be then you make place the grid
on that spot. If not place the grid over your heart
center. Now ask for your higher self, guides,
source, and whomever else you wish to assist
you and healing to remove the imprint and take
it all the way back to source to be transmuted
into light. Now ask for this area to be healed
and fully recovered in all dimensions, timelines,
and lifetimes.
Transmute Entity Attachment
There are many unseen entities that are drawn to your light and/or your darkness.
These entities will attach to your aura, your physical body, or go with in your energetic body.
They can be thought of as a parasite feeding off of your energy.
Oftentimes these entities are drawn to a negative aspect that you both have in common.
When they are present the aspect will increase dramatically in thoughts, feelings, and even behaviors.
The entities that are drawn to your light are harder to feel around you, there are no side effects other
than feeling drained. These entities feed off of the light you bring in so after meditation you may feel more
tired than when you started.
These entities will attach to your aura, your physical body, or go with in your energetic body.
They can be thought of as a parasite feeding off of your energy.
Oftentimes these entities are drawn to a negative aspect that you both have in common.
When they are present the aspect will increase dramatically in thoughts, feelings, and even behaviors.
The entities that are drawn to your light are harder to feel around you, there are no side effects other
than feeling drained. These entities feed off of the light you bring in so after meditation you may feel more
tired than when you started.
To remove these attachments you will see this grid within your solar plexus and you may place it there.
Ask your higher self, guides,and source to assist you in this clearing.
You will see this grid expand from your solar plexus to your whole body.
Know, feel, and see the all entities are being transmuted into light in all dimensions, timelines, and lifetimes.
Ask your higher self, guides,and source to assist you in this clearing.
You will see this grid expand from your solar plexus to your whole body.
Know, feel, and see the all entities are being transmuted into light in all dimensions, timelines, and lifetimes.
Sunday, July 1, 2018
Mastering the Matrix- Food Energy
As a child I was a vegetarian though I did finally join with the social norm and ate meat. This was mostly to avoid the nasty blood tasting drops I was given to keep my iron up. I developed a love for a few meats. After my awakening my body decided it was time to cut meat from my diet along with eggs and dairy. Making me sick to my stomach when I ate these foods. So there you have it I became a vegan.
It wasn't until recently when I was trying to wrap my head around honey. Was I still considered a vegan if I eat honey? A question that was sparked after I posted a recipe for colds including honey. Someone called me out on this. Then I thought of a resident I take care of that is a vegetarian, but eats fish....
As I thought of these odd lables and how we fit into the imaginary boxes society likes to put us in and likes us to trap ourselves in. A download of continuous knowings, thoughts, and images came through from the higher realms.
Whatever you do or don't eat is your choice alone and is not judged by higher realms. You should know a few things about foods to make a more informed decision.
1. Food is vibration just as you are. What that food has encountered will effect it's vibration. Animals and genetically modified foods are a low vibration. Organic is best.
2. The lower your personal vibration the more lower vibrational foods you will want. The quality will increase as well.
3. The higher your vibration the less your body will tolerate low vibration foods.
4. Blessing your food will ensure a higher vibration.
5. No matter what you eat you will be harming something. Animals and plants have feelings. If you were to eat synthetic foods you would be harming yourself. Proper energy management of balance is key. This is until humans can receive all life force energy from the sun.
6. The longer the food is dead/harvest the more it loses life force energy. The food spoils we know this, but long before that point the energy can be very low. Eat food as close to harvest as possible.
7. Along with #6 the longer a food is frozen/cooked the more it loses life force energy. For this reason it may be best to avoid foods that require long cooking times to be safe to eat.
The pieces were coming together now. When I had moments of cravings of lower vibrational foods I was in a low vibration. I was really sick with a cold, lack of sleep, stressed. During these times I could eat these foods and feel fine. Until I started to raise my vibration.
The Blessing
The blessing I received was pretty straight forward. All you need to do is pray or state that your food is of the highest vibration it can be. Ask that the food provides you with all the vitamins and minerals it can. Ask that you body absorbes all the vitamins and minerals it needs. Also it is very important to thank the food for being on your plate. Thank all who assisted the food to your plate. The farmer, the workers on the farm, the truck drivers, the people at the store, the cook...
Keeping Balance
When you eat food you are taking in life force energy. You are literally taking the life force of that animal or plant. This is how humans have to survive for now. Keeping the energy balance is the key to living a balanced life.
First do not eat more then you need. Often we eat out of habit when having a get-together, watching a movie, traveling... But how many times are you actually hungry? Eat when you are hungry and when you are full stop. Do not allow habits or cravings toss you out of balance.
Next send energy back to the location on Earth your food lost its life. Intention is everything so just intend that healing energy go back to the spot this animal or plant lived and died. Be thankful too. This raises the vibration of this spot and increases the vibration of all life there.
I did have a few charging grids come to me as well I will try to post those as soon as possible. This will be on Instagram or Facebook. So finds us there to keep up to date on the artistic channelings I receive. Often I don't receive enough knowing about the piece to do an entire post here.
Sunday, June 17, 2018
Ascension- consciousness stages
After changing my whole mission in this lifetime I was guided through amazing synchronicity to slow things down in my sharing with you guys. For a long while I was on this crazy fast remembering stream of consciousness. I couldn't possibly write about it all. Now I have the time to go back and share some basic concepts. This post will be about the stages of consciousness and psychological evaluation. There are 7 stages to each.
The first 3 stages of consciousness are known to all humans (unless they are in a comma). They are waking consciousness, deep sleep consciousness, and dreaming consciousness (even if you don't remember your dreams you still dream). In these 3 stages of consciousness we experience the first 3 stages of psychological evaluation.
1. Surviving and basic world navigation. Eating, sleeping, getting basic needs cared for.
2. Confirming to social norms of parents. Navigating through the standards set by parents and caretakers.
3. Differentiating between parents, peers, and authority standards. Navigating life trying to make everyone happy.
In times past this was where the psychological evolution stopped. You finished school, got married, got a job, had kids, and was swimming in debt. That was life until you hit retirement and had time to actually explore life. By this time you were so set in your was that most doors of consciousness were closed to you. Now days with all the chemicals in everything you will be lucky to make it that far and still be healthy enough to do anything you want. Good news though, if you are reading this you are questioning or starting to question life. Perhaps there is more to life you move on to stage 4.
4. Individuating youself. Looking beyond the social norms. Trying to find yourself.
With the day and age we live in meditation is very popular. So at this stage if psychological evaluation you will likely find yourself in the 4th stage of consciousness as well. This is the transcendental conscious. The inner silence of the mind and senses (meditation). This stage of consciousness may be as far as some go through the rest of the psychological evaluation stages. Only evolving on a basic ego level. This is ok, but I think you want more.
The rest of the consciousness stages:
5. Cosmic consciousness- expanded level of transcendental consciousness. You take the stillness of the moments of meditation and expand it to everyday life. Letting go of the ego. Seeing the illusions of the matrix. Becoming the true self... the higher self.
6. God consciousness- fully open heart at this point. Love is your vibration. Seeing the purpose of the illusions of the matrix. Seeing the purpose of the matrix.
7. Unity consciousness- oneness of all. You are all and all is you. Duality fades form your world. No more separation between you and anything.
Now let's finish the psychological evaluation stages and see how they can expand:
5. Self-actualization- the questioning of self. Who am I? Why am I here? Finding your purpose. On a 3d level this looks like: am I a banker? Or am I more drawn to health care? On a higher expanded level this may be a healer, extra-sensory talents, soul orgins, past lives...
6. Integration- making changes in your life to become the you you know you are. This may be on a 3d level a job change to health care from a banker. On an expanded level search of healing systems and techniques, the use of light language, channeling...
7. Service- giving back to the world. Now you know what you want to do in life and who you are. You go out and assist the world with your talents. On a 3d level you may go to non profit places and help with others health. You may help the homeless with health needs. On an expanded level you would give away healing for free. You may teach others what you have learned. You may send healing to parts of the world or universe.
Explore yourself deeply and find where you are and where you want to go in the stages of consciousness and psychological evaluation. Remember sometimes the 3d life doesn't match up with the extended life right away. I am a caregiver for the elderly on the 3d side. I love it and know this is where I should be. On the expanded side I am a mind opener a way shower through my art, healing, and writing. At this point in humanity consciousness the two do not mix. Find what feels right to you.
Saturday, June 16, 2018
Ascension- choices
On this planet within this universe we have freewill. This is how we got in this pickle in this first place. Stuck in a reality that is so controlled. Program after program flooding in on us. So many tricks and dead ends that no one knows what way is right. In all honesty no way is right and no way is wrong. The soul sees only experience. We chose this reality either on a soul level or by our conscious actions. Our actions are not fully conscious sometimes we only see part of the picture, sometimes the whole picture, and sometimes none. No matter what part of the picture you see or what you choose this is only experience to the soul.
There is this ever growing feeling of rush to evolve and ascend. If you ascend to the 5th dimension you are the winner. What we are forgetting is this is not a race. This illusion of the race has created more fear. Fear is what the controllers want. Fear keeps you locked in the 3rd dimension. Be you and go at your pace. You have freewill and can choose to ascend or you can choose to not. There is still much work to do here and the ones struggling need help to see the truth and the way to the light.
I personally made this choice. Although not fully conscious of all the pieces of the puzzle at the time. When I married not to long ago I had a choice to change my last name or not. I knew this change would change my vibration. I knew I would take on new karma and goals. I didn't do my soul contract reading of the new name because this was a choice of the heart not of the mind.
I struggled to find what was right for my path. Both felt right. But one side pulled my heart strings more. I changed my name. The day I made this decision a wall came down around me. I felt stuck in the 3rd dimension and my world was starting to spirl downward in vibration. I was being swallowed by the matrix. It was harder and harder to get out.
At what I would call my rock bottom last week I started a search for answers. I connected to my soul and asked what was happening and how I could change.
I seen my new name before me. I seen a page go over another page. I knew my name change had changed my path. I knew I was to now be in service to all here. To continue the lightworker battle. To show the way to those who cannot yet see. This has become my passion and my new soul destiny.
Friday, June 15, 2018
Ascension- dreams
Most nights since my awakening started my dreams are not actually dreams. I am experiencing different timelines and lifetimes of my soul. This started off just every once in awhile and over the years has increased to almost everytime I "dream", but not every night. I didn't just start off doing this my consciousness seemed to slowly increase over the years.
In the beginning came an increase of lucid dreaming. The ability to control your dreams consciously. Now I have always done this, but it did become less and less after life got busy with kids and work. Whenever I had lucid dreamt it was not as fun as one may think. I changed the ending of dreams or organized a room. I was conscious enough to know I was dreaming, but not conscious enough to think of going on amazing adventures.
After the lucid dreaming increased I had a long period of conscious sleeping. This is not fun at all. I am asleep I feel my body asleep I hear/feel a slight snore from my body, but I cannot move. I cannot wake up or dream. I am fully aware of everything going on in my room and house. I can feel my husband move and snore. At frist I would meditate in hopes I would fully fall asleep, but that never happened. At some point around 3-5am I would fall fully asleep only to awaken right away. These nights felt so long. I never felt like I slept.
The third stage the one I am in now is timeline and lifetime jumping. In my sleep I am aware if myself in different timelines and lifetimes. I have been aboard many spaceships and on many amazing planets. My skin has had many shapes, colors, and textures. Now the different timelines get a bit tricky. Im never sure what one I'm going to stay in. These timelines are often very close to mine.
For example this morning I woke up at 2:22am. Went to the bathroom and proceed to be awake until my alarm sounded right before 5am. The thing is I know I was jumping between a few timelines. They all fit into each other so nicely. I'm not sure if I was asleep or awake in this timeline. In one timeline at about 4ish my sister came into my room looking for work clothes. In this timeline she doesn't work today I do. In another about the same time my husband decided to talk my ear off until my alarm sounded. In this timeline he knows that would not end well. And yet another my shower had 2 doors you had to open to get into it and I was wearing 2 set of socks. In this timeline I was wearing one set of socks and my shower has one door.
All of these timelines I had the memories of just that timeline. I had thoughts for just that timeline. When I actually dream I do not have memories or thoughts. When I start to I am lucid dreaming and can affect what I see. What happened early this morning and often was no dream.
Normally when I awaken from a night like this I cannot hold on to the other lives for long. It just fades away as I start my day with kids. Today was a work day so I was able to have time on my drive to think about and remember what had happened. Nothing exciting, but interesting as the same.
Friday, June 1, 2018
High Heart Chakra
Between the throat and heart chakras is a chakra called the high heart chakra. This energy center pulls energy from both the heart and throat chakras. Taking the knowing and manifesting ability of the throat center and the love of the heart center. This creates the ability to see, know, feel your purpose. With your purpose now known you can step into service to others work.
The high heart is able to be accessed through higher spiritual levels. Which we are all moving towards this. It has a strong link to the divine and god source. Opening the door to the 5th dimension. This is normally done through inner healing work. At this point in time we are all being shown what needs to be healed through what is coming up in our lives. Through this heal the high heart will open.
Dreams are more open for you to explore and gain wisdom form when the high heart is open. You are in a state of unconditional for all. When the high heart is blocked there is a tendency to ignore others feeling and needs. There is a rejection to spirit and spiritual things. It is very hard to express your emotions though you can still feel them.
One job of the high heart is to regulate how much energy is coming in from the higher chakras. It assist in the integration of energies. With this center being at the location of the thymus glad (the immune system's house) it explains why when we are integrating energies either higher or lower we get a cold or flu. This chakra when clearing old energies away will push extra higher energy through the immune system causing us to be sick. This in turn causes us to slow down and rest more so the body can adjust to the new energy. This clears all energy channels and causes a purging of negative energy. To us in the physical this looks like being sick. When we have aches and pains the energy is stuck and building up. Often times this is caused by a lack of integration. We are holding on to energy (memories, patterns, pain...) that no longer serve us. LET GO!!!
The element for the high heart chakra is fire. There are many colors for this chakra being pink, bright white, turquoise, and megenta. Adding this chakra to your routine with the other chakra will start the process of awakening to your purpose. A fast routine is to see the colors of the chakras light up in order root (red), sacral (orange), solar plexus (yellow), heart (green), high heart (one color above), Throat (blue), third eye (indigo), crown (violet). To clear them see the all spinning counter clockwise. To bring energy in spin them clockwise.
Using this grid will assist you in living in unconditional love. It will help in opening the high heart. Meditate on, hold hand over, look at, place under pillow.
Bully Archetype Integration
The bully archetype is much more then being bullied by others. This is an archetype is about always facing life events that seem much bigger then we are. It is about feeling like life is always pushing you down. When we go through the dark night of the soul during our awakening we find this archetype playing a big role. It seems at every turn we are being pushed to our limits. It feels like life is just trying to keep us down, like the whole world is against us. You are stuck in a one step forward and 10 steps back cycle.
The key is to notice this is happening and to keep going. I know it is hard, but trust me you can find your way out. The trick is to find your passion, the one thing you love to do and do it. If you focus on this one this you love and spend your free time doing it you will find your way out without even realizing it. One day you will just notice life is getting better. At this point you can practice being thankful. Be thankful for every small good thing. This will bring on more good things.
The main thing during this time is not to run from your problems, but face them in a new way. For me it was healing others. Through the healing of others I found my healing. For you it may be painting, singing, talking to others, writing... whatever it is it will help you. This is what the bully archetype is trying to do is make you heal. Life situations will come to you forcing you to heal deep wounds that you have been pushing down for a long time. You either face these things and heal them or deal with them coming back over and over again.
The grid will help you in integrating the wounds that need to be healed. This grid allows you to see what the bully archetype is trying to show you. Meditate on it, put in in your pocket, hold your hand over it, look at it, crystal grid with it, energy heal with it.
Wednesday, May 30, 2018
Soul Star Chakra
The Soul Star Chakra is about 6 inches above the head. It is a purpleish pink color. This is a 5th dimensional chakra. It is activated during the beginning stages of Ascension.
This chakra forms a bridge between physical and spiritual realities. The Soul Star holds all talent, wisdom, and knowledge from all your lifetimes. This is will only activate the ones that will help for this lifetime.
The Soul Star us divined into 2 parts. The lower part connects to your Monad. This is a 12th dimensional part of you. This you is a higher aspect then your soul. Your soul is a higher aspect of you. Your soul has 12 personalities, you are one of these. Not all are incarnated here or anywhere. Some personalities at as your guides. The Monad has 12 souls to it, just like the soul has 12 personalities. So with each Monad having 12 souls and each soul having 12 personalities you have access to 144 beings knowledge. This opens your heart to what your journey is in this lifetime.
The higher part is the access to the soul. These opens up first giving you access to 12 personalities past life information. Once you have raised your vibration enough you get access to the Monad part. Opening far more doors and kick starting some stuff in your life.
The higher part is the access to the soul. These opens up first giving you access to 12 personalities past life information. Once you have raised your vibration enough you get access to the Monad part. Opening far more doors and kick starting some stuff in your life.
Activations- Piscloa
Everything and anything can be an activation to you. Lighting up your DNA, turning on and off different parts of your DNA. Or giving you the power to awaken or to stay asleep (spiritually that is), turn away from outdated patterns or keep them going, go places you need to go or stay way, walk away from a bad relationship. They are triggers for the subconscious to make you behave or think a certain way. Some are triggers from spirit and some are from the ones trying to control us.
It is up to you to see the activation and find out what it means. An activation that is easier to notice is when something keeps repeating to you. Like the same word is repeated throughout the day. Or the same image is repeated or and combo of both. Music, animals, numbers can also be repeated. The thing to remember is each activation will be personal. My point in sharing mine is to show you how to find yours. When looking for the meaning do not take what others have said as your truth. Find your own truth by how it feels to you. Does it feel right? Does it relate to your life somehow.
My Piscola activation
After hearing this word used as a city in Georgia in two completely different shows in two completely different rooms at work (I'm a caregiver for the elderly in a assisted living facility) it registered as an activation to me. Now I had never been there or even known where there was. Or know anything about that place. My first instinct was to Google it. Thank God for google.
I find out it is in Georgia at an elevation of 144.44 feet. Then I look up the meaning for 144 because this number stands out to me.
I was in awe when I saw Mt. Rainier come up. Things were starting to become clear because I was going to Rainier the next day. Not the mountain but the city. So I had to go there to get the activation. Then I looked at the latitude of Piscola 306901991. The first thing that stood out was the 369.
It is up to you to see the activation and find out what it means. An activation that is easier to notice is when something keeps repeating to you. Like the same word is repeated throughout the day. Or the same image is repeated or and combo of both. Music, animals, numbers can also be repeated. The thing to remember is each activation will be personal. My point in sharing mine is to show you how to find yours. When looking for the meaning do not take what others have said as your truth. Find your own truth by how it feels to you. Does it feel right? Does it relate to your life somehow.
My Piscola activation
After hearing this word used as a city in Georgia in two completely different shows in two completely different rooms at work (I'm a caregiver for the elderly in a assisted living facility) it registered as an activation to me. Now I had never been there or even known where there was. Or know anything about that place. My first instinct was to Google it. Thank God for google.
I find out it is in Georgia at an elevation of 144.44 feet. Then I look up the meaning for 144 because this number stands out to me.
144- look for a new way to do your work. Keep positive thoughts. Fibonacci number. 144,000 lightworkers to transform the world. Monad is a 12th dimensional part of you. This you is a higher aspect then your soul. Your soul is a higher aspect of you. Your soul has 12 personalities, you are one of these. Not all are incarnated here or anywhere. Some personalities at as your guides. The Monad has 12 souls to it, just like the soul has 12 personalities. So with each Monad having 12 souls and each soul having 12 personalities you have access to 144 beings knowledge. This opens your heart to what your journey is in this lifetime.
Then I look up the meaning of 14444. This was a hard one. Google showed me different sites and these are the things that stood out to me.
14444- female, tradesman, new free from government intervention, Mt. Rainier is 14,444 feet.
I was in awe when I saw Mt. Rainier come up. Things were starting to become clear because I was going to Rainier the next day. Not the mountain but the city. So I had to go there to get the activation. Then I looked at the latitude of Piscola 306901991. The first thing that stood out was the 369.
369- Compassion, creative expression, healing energy, family and home, Nikola Tesla 369.
Next the 1991 stands out to me, the year my mom died and I lost my ability to see energy and auras. Before that I saw the worlrd as pixelated. Tiny colorful dots making up images of reality. Nothing looked solid to me. My reality became just like everyones when she died. So this activation is reawakening these abilities.
The day I was supposed to go didn't workout. I went the next day. A day that was a full moon, great for clearing out stagnant energies. And it was an 11:11 portal day, great for manifestation. To bring my mom's energy in more it happenes to be my mom's birthday too.
The energy was super high and I was dizzy all day. It wasn't until my son asked me to cover him in sand that I felt better for a few minutes. This of course grounded my energy clearing the dizziness. The next day the world became more fluid looking. After I my day mellowed out I noticed auras popping out at me.
The energy was super high and I was dizzy all day. It wasn't until my son asked me to cover him in sand that I felt better for a few minutes. This of course grounded my energy clearing the dizziness. The next day the world became more fluid looking. After I my day mellowed out I noticed auras popping out at me.
Sunday, May 27, 2018
Awakened Life- falling apart
Not to long ago my husband said to me, "you and others like you make this Ascension thing look so easy." I never thought about it until he said this. By the time we start sharing we have gone through the hard part and are in a state of flow. We have a new prospective on life and normally try not to be attached to an outcome.
In this series I will start to turn back the clock and share my experiences with you. Sharing my feelings then and my expanded perspective now. My hope is to assist you as your going through the hard part, give you tips that helped me, and hopefully help you find hope.
Through great pain comes great change.
No words were ever more true then these in the start of my Awakening. My trigger, my great pain was my dad getting cancer. The exact cancer my mom died from when I was a child. In my search to find a way to save him my awakening started. I was sure after 21 years some progress was made on treatment. But no. I researched inside and outside of traditional treatment. It wasn't until after his death that I found many things we could have tried... I started to awaken to the truths of the world I lived in. How was I so blind? I felt mad and stupid at the same time. Things I once fought for were the very things harming us.
As I was trying to wrap my head around the truths of the world my personal life was falling apart. My kids were kicked out of daycare and preschool. One son had anger problems and the other was a copycat. I homeschool for a few years. But at least had to put them in public school. They were falling behind because of my one son's behavior. We are talking daily rage fits, destroying the house fits. I just couldn't deal with his behaviors and teach 2 kids everything they needed to know. I also switched jobs twice in this time.
I was beyond devastated the way my life was. I felt like no matter what I did I was messing it all up. So many tears were cried as I tried so hard to pick up the pieces of my life only to have them knocked down again. Not a day went by that I didn't want to quit my life. Just walk away and say f it. This is the dark night of the soul (Google it).
It was a few months into the new school year when I found something that felt right about this new life that I was pushed into. By this time I had to change my work schedule to working only weekends 16 hours each day. This way I was free to help the school with my son. I was a single mom at the time so it was all on me. My sister watched the kids when she wasn't working. Thank God. This also meant 5 days off a week for me. By this time my kids were 6 and 7 finally I had time to myself.
It was during my few hours of freedom that I found my state of flow. I now had a few hours to disconnect from the issues of my life and just be. I didn't go into deep meditation or anything. I just walked to trails in the nature park and started to share with you all the information I was uncovering. Most importantly I start to see the purpose of putting my kids back in school. One of our missions is to assist in changing how schools teach. This is a mission still going and causes a great number of tears.
Tips to survive
1. Move your body. During my hard times I discovered yoga. I'm not talking about going to a class. I'm talking about watching the kids play and trying to get a few moves in before a fight breaks out. Or having them do it with me. Cosmic kids is a great YouTube for that.
Body movement assist in moving blocked energy, patterns, pain, and negativity out if the body. It frees the channels of energy through your body.
2. Meditation. I'm not talking about a 20 minutes session and out of body experiences. No mom has time for that. While sitting in the sun watching the kids play consciously know, feel, see the source energy come into you. Or while in the shower or at a river see, feel, know the negativity is being washed away.
3. Faith. Have faith that everything is in divine order. It will all work out in the end. You must first believe then you will see.
4. Letting go. Let go of the way life was. Life is always changing and it will lead you to where you should be. Let go of how you want life to be. Let go of old pain. Let go of relationships. Let go of jobs.
5. Take it one day at a time. Get through today. Tomorrow try to be better then the day before. Don't be hard on yourself though. Self love is very important now. You are doing the best you can in your present reality.
6. Light codes, frequency grids, and light language. These help me now. I write a light code on my hand and it reminds me of what I want to do that day. It always gives you an energetic boost to make it happen. I listen to light language while cleaning. I place a frequency grid on my wallpaper on my phone. All assist me in keeping a higher vibration so life doesn't seem so hard.
7. Affirmations. These help me now too. I play affirmations from YouTube while I do house work or yoga. This programs my subconscious to be more positive.
8. Be thankful. Even if it is for just small stuff. Even if you are tganktha today didn't suck as much as yesterday. The more you consciously recognize the little things the more they will happen.
8. Be thankful. Even if it is for just small stuff. Even if you are tganktha today didn't suck as much as yesterday. The more you consciously recognize the little things the more they will happen.
Thursday, May 24, 2018
Begger Archetype Integration
The begger Archetype is not just for the homeless on the street corners. One can be a begger of attention, love, authority, or other things. Often times we see kids playing the begger Archetype as they act out to gain attention. Lovers will often gain the attention of another to get their lovers attention, this is a form of begging.
A lot of times people will tell you their sob story begging for you to feel sorry for them. They do this in hopes you will give them something or do something for them. People many also suck up to the boss begging for that promotion.
This grid will assist you in that. Just look at it, meditate with it, hold your hand over, color it...
Avenger archetype integration
The avenger archetype relates to our need for justice. When this archetype is at play within our energy we feel that people should do what is right and be punished for what is wrong. Sometimes we feel the need for this to be an aggressive punshiment.
As people awaken to the truths of our world this archetype will come into play more an more. There are many wrongs in the world that happen right in front of us. Often times we were agreeing with this or promoting them without knowing the full picture. As the picture becomes fuller and fuller we start to see the injustice. Our frist emotion is often anger. Anger at self for not seeing and anger at the ones doing it. We cry out for justice and often this is a violent justice we want.
This is normal and is how we are programmed to react. This however doesn't help us. Anger feeds the injust ones. Our greatest weapon is forgiveness and love.
This grid will assist you in that. Just look at it, meditate with it, hold your hand over, color it...
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